© 2019 by Deon Sanders.

"Healing the world, one heart at a time"

"Surviving the Darkness"

As the sun cracked the morning sky I woke this morning, My spirit started to REFLECT on life and how blessed I am just to be able to breathe and see a new day. So in deep thought with myself and The Most High, I pondered this morning....How is it that I am still mentally and emotionally well above average that I made it to become a Clinical Counselor? How is it that my light still shines bright and I am always smiling? How is it that my greatest joy is when I am helping others? How can I still see the good in this world after being beaten by so much darkness?? And just like that I heard, “It’s because you never allowed your heart to go “bad."I haven’t written in a long time but this morning I felt moved to start back and I wanted to share a portion of my pain with you in hopes of helping you see differently and love better....


See Growing up I was being molested and sexually abused from ages 5 to 16 while simultaneously being bullied, I always prayed to God to not let my heart go “bad”...when I was held at gun point, with a gun to my head or when my heart was crushed into pieces because of the physical/emotional abuse I was experiencing in my first relationship; I always prayed to God to not let my heart go “bad”...as I sat in a jail cell for months and missed the birth of my Niece; I remember once again praying, God please don’t let my heart go “bad...

As I struggled financially after being used and taken advantage of by people I loved and cares for; yet again I prayed, God please don’t let my heart go “bad” This was my prayer not because of some religious obligation of residual effects of psychological slavery as some would argue, it was because I did not want to ever be capable of causing the kind of hurt and pain to others that was done to me...

See No matter what others do to us or what situation we find ourselves in we have to be reminded that the other thing that can destroy the darkness is light and the only thing that can eradicate hate is love and the only thing that keeps us connected is our heart, it is our heart that allows us to help others survive their wars and battles, it is your heart that houses your light, your energy, your being....

Yes bad shyt happens and its unfair but if we are to truly survive and win then we can never allow the darkness around us or the darkness that is covering us to ever CORRUPT us, for that is what it truly means to SURVIVE....❤️☀️✊🏾 Thanks for reading....

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